Afraid

Every time my friends say that they met someone who's a bit like me, I say that I'm unique, special and that there is only one Tea. Then we all laugh and continue to talk about boys, clothes, makeup....
The truth is; I am afraid. I'm not special or unique. I am loud, annoying, ugly person who is easily replaceable  and I'm afraid that they will leave me for someone new, better.
 I am afraid that one day I will fade and disappear.

I wanna run away

...far from everything and everyone.
 I need to escape this routine and be free, be alive.

Happy

That's all I want to be. HAPPY.
I was never bullied by other people so I don't know where are this feeling coming from. I guess you could say I'm my own bully. I convince myself that I'm ugly, worthless,nobody....It's kinda hard to be happy once you have that image about yourself.